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Arthur won’t be coming home this year

 

Elsie’s meringue weeps more than she’d like today.
She hasn’t lost her touch for turning it the perfect golden
nor stacking it a proud four inches deep.
She hopes one of the grandkids will drop by for a slice
of lemon pie on the way home from school.
She sure could use some company.
Rolly is her favorite–he takes the time to admire
her collection of black glass knick-knacks.
She has so little left to her name.

Her kids sold off the farm and most of her possessions
to pay bills when Arthur passed–
then moved her into this tiny shoebox house.
They’d said, It’s big enough, Mother. Grandpa won’t be
coming home no more.

Arthur won’t be coming home this year–or next.
Or next.

Elsie wakes each morning thinking she’s been robbed.
What’s happened to her coalpail, her pitchfork, her mess
of baling wire for fixing things?
She devotes her time to marking everything she possesses.
She embroiders Elsie on her undergarments, scribbles it
on every card in her Canasta deck, even somehow manages
to scratch it into her kitchen dishes.
Though one might well expect to find the odd lard mark
here or there in anyone’s cookbook, in Elsie’s
Household Searchlight Recipe Book,
     the pages are smothered with her name–

and on one page, she’s written,
had one cookbook stolen, want it back.
She smears her name with lipstick on the back screendoor.
She carves it into the arm of Arthur’s platform rocker

as she stares dumb-eyed at the snowy TV screen.

Arthur won’t be coming home this year–or next.
Or next.

And then she starts another pie.
If one of the grandkids doesn’t show up, she will dump it
in the backyard and watch the squirrels make a meringue
circus of themselves.
She whistles Swing Low Sweet Chariot.
And one of these days she needs to get around to finishing

the pages of her bible.
The paper is too skinny to write on.
It rips when she applies pressure with her pencil and when
she uses her blue fountain pen, the ink blobs
and musses her dress.
She wouldn’t be in this predicament if Arthur hadn’t passed.

She’s afraid to ask one of the sons to try to fix the snow
on the TV.
Maybe it’s her eyes and she’ll be forced to spend money
she doesn’t have on new glasses.
She drops her favorite heavy brown ovenware bowl as she beats
the egg whites.
One less bowl–and this was the one that had been the most difficult
to scratch her name into.

Her upper lip rattles–oozes shiny balls of sweat–
then goes hard.

She prays if she ever gets to the other side
she won’t bump into Arthur.

I might’ve told him

 

Mark Saunders and ten others
made the Honor Roll
on national TV.
All of them Americans
under the age of twenty-seven.
The famous news anchorman said:
“In silence, here are eleven more.”
Like always I started counting
uniform pictures of proud soldiers
and wishing they were not dead.
You don’t expect to see somebody you know.
Then oh my god
there was Mark’s picture.
More like a crummy snapshot.
Him looking kind of high
leaning against the cockpit of a jet.
I had to stare at his hometown name
to believe it was him.
Mark never knew it
but I fell in love with him
after Junior Prom
after we dumped our chicks
after we didn’t get laid
after we hooted it up
till sunrise
after we went for a mess of bacon at Denny’s.
That’s when I fell in love
with Mark Saunders.
I should have but
never got around to
telling him
he had amazing hands.

(c) 2006 the poet Spiel From Spiel chapbook, 2006, come here cowboy: poems of war.

 

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(c) 2004 spiel   ” bad boys”

A 2004 variation on an image originally commissioned as a silk screened Mardi Gras poster in 1992. That poster was signed by Taylor as “Tom Thom” another of his several pen names.  

deceit

 

we live
our lives
in mirrors

(confident)

our reflections
will not
bleed

(c) 2004 Spiel
Previously published by: Free Verse, Skidrow Penthouse, King’s Estate Anthology, Pudding House Publications, Chiron Poetry Review. Also appears in: it breathes on its own, the Spiel chapbook, available on the Spiel Books page. 

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“jar”
“(c) 2007 Spiel”
An anguished self-portrait, the first full painting done by the artist after a long period of reticence as a painter which followed the 1996 revelation that he was soon to die from life-threatening illness.

breaking rules

 

breaking rules robs energy
i do not have the will to spare
i make my own instead   do so
not to appease your familiarity
but cast in light
to disrupt the core
of discomforts
we may share
for what we share in common
in our darkness:
the burdens of our closets,
is where we lift our care

 

(c) 2005 Spiel
From it breathes on its own
a chapbook by Spiel, published by Pudding House
also, previously published by Abbey

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 “Everything will turn out O.K.”  57″h x 68″w x 13″d

 (c) 1987 Tom Taylor

from The Quintessential White Bread Exercise.

@ Pirate, A Contemporary Art Oasis, Denver Colorado

extension

 

no one dies
we all live on

miserably
beyond our time

the blessed curse
of unscrupulous medicine

and clinging loved ones
whose lives

are merely shadows
of our dreams

 

(c) 8/7/03  Spiel
From Chiron Review 

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“Grief”    (c) 1999  Spiel

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  “Starry Night 1890/1990”   52″ h x 36″ w x 10″ d   (c) 1990 Tom Taylor

Taylor’s 100 year anniversary tribute to the suicide of Vincent van Gogh with whom Taylor shares the fate of mental illness. This turbulent piece is skillfully drawn with unpredictable expansion foam. It includes bared teeth in the stars, a bulging moon and a pistol in the visceral area where van Gogh originally painted dark and weathered cypress trees.

Spiel is published worldwide in independent publications such as:

Abbey; Alpha Beat Press; Anthills; art mag; AscentAspirations; Barbaric Yawp; Barking Dogs; Bathtub Gin; Big Intersection; Blind Man’s Rainbow; Bogg; Buckle &; Broomweed Journal; Chiron Review; Chiron Review Press; Cliffs Soundings; Covert Poetics; Cranial Tempest; Creative Juices; Dana Literary Society; Denver Post; Dodobobo; DogEar; Drama Garden; Empty Shoes Anthology; EnCompass; Erased, Sigh, Sigh; (The) Espresso; Eye-Point Press; Fight These Bastards; First Class; Four Sep Publications; Free Verse; Frisson:disconcerting verse; Gargoyle; Gestalten; Gin Bender Poetry Review; Gloom Cupboard; Happy; Hecale; Iconoclast; Impetus; (The) Independent; Iodine; Jaw Magazine; jendireiter.com; King’s Estate Press; laurahird. com; League of Laboring Poets; Lilliput Review; Lost & Found; Lucid Moon; LuVER Radio; Lynx Eye; MadmanInk; Mainstreet Rag; March Street Press; Marymark Press; Muse Artist’s Guild; Muse’s Review; Neotrope; Nerve Cowboy; New Verse News; Nicestories; No Exit; Open Cut; Opium Poetry 2.0; Origami Condom; Oyster Boy Review; Patrick T. Randolph; Parting Gifts; Passport Journal; Pearl; PenHimalaya; Plain Jane; Poems-for-All; Poesy; Poetalk; Poetry Motel; Poets Against War; Pudding Magazine; Pudding House Publications; Pueblo Chieftain; Pueblo Poetry Project; Pueblo West View; P.U.L.P.; Quill & Parchment; Ragged Edge; Rain Mountain Press; Rejected Notice; RFD; Remark; Rocky Mountain News; Secret Press; Shoes; Skidrow Penthouse; Slipstream; Small Press Review; Snapdragon; Snow Monkey; Storyteller; Strangeroad; St. Vitus Press & Poetry Review; Sugar Mule; Thunder Sandwich; Touchstone; Transcendent Visions; Under the Banana Tree; Unlikely Stories; Velvet Box; WestWind Review; Winning Writers; Word Riot; World Poets Society; Zafusy; Zen Baby; Zygote in my Coffee; ZYX;

Solo Exhibitions as the visual artist Tom Taylor aka Thoss W. Taylor aka The Poet Spiel

(as Conceptual Artist, as Wildlife Artist, as Political and Statement Artist, as Alternative Space Artist

Museum, University, Gallery, and Private Solo Exhibitions, 1964 to present, in alphabetic order

 

Aspen Center for Environmental Studies, Aspen, CO, (x2)

Born Free Gallery, Evergreen, CO

Bradford Junior College, Bradford, MA

Brand Library Art Center, Glendale, CA

The Breckenridge Gallery, Breckenridge, CO

California Institute of the Arts, Burbank, CA

Center for Idea Art, Denver, CO

Charles Cowles, New York City, NY

Colorado State University, Pueblo, CO

The Corcoran Gallery, Washington D.C.

CORE New Art Space, Denver

Edge Gallery, Denver, CO, (x2)

The Eugenia Butler Gallery, Los Angeles, CA

First National Bank, Loveland, CO

The Flanders Show, Longmont, CO

Fort Detrick, Frederick, MD

Gallery East, Loveland, CO

The Gallery at Hudson’s Bay, Denver, CO, (x2)

The Gondolier, Boulder, CO 1964, #1 (first solo exhibit), (x2)

Harris Fireside Lounge, Longmont, CO

Hunter College, New York City, NY

Immaculate Heart College, Los Angeles, CA

The Landmark Gallery, Longmont, CO

The Loft, Pueblo, CO

The Longmont Museum, Longmont, CO (1989 retrospective)

The Moote Home Show, Ft. Collins, CO

Newport Harbor Art Museum, Balboa, CA

Nova Scotia College of Art, Halifax, Nova Scotia

Pioneer Museum, Longmont, CO

Pirate – A Contemporary Art Oasis, Denver, CO, (x2)

Prince Georges College, Washington, DC

Pueblo Community College, Pueblo, CO

Reese-Palley Gallery, San Francisco, CA

The Rex Evans Gallery, Los Angeles, CA

Royce Galleries Ltd., Denver, CO, (x2)

Rubenstein-Serkez Gallery, Denver, CO

Rutgers University, New Brunswick, NJ

San Juan Gallery at PCC, Pueblo. CO

Santa Barbara Museum of Art, Santa Barbara, CA

Sotheby Park-Bernet/ Houston Museum of Contemporary Art, Houston, TX

Two Squares Gallery, Denver, CO

University of California, Davis, CA

University of Colorado Memorial Fine Arts Center, Boulder, CO

University of Northern Colorado, Greeley, CO (1983 retrospective)

Wadsworth Atheneum, Hartford, CT

Wildlife Conservation Society of Zambia, Lusaka, Zambia, Africa

Wildlife World Museum, Monument, CO

More Spielspeak

In 1985, while a member of the Denver artist’s co-op, Pirate A Contemporary Art Oasis, Taylor created a page for “The Codex,” a limited edition of handmade books in which his peers each made unique pages.  Taylor snipped bits of his white beard, then taped them to green graph paper with the words, “HAIR RAISED by a living artist, THINGS TO KEEP THAT MIGHT BE VALUABLE SOME DAY.” Little did he know that one day individual issues of those books would land in the archives of N.Y.C.’s Museum of Modern Art,  The Whitney Museum of American Art and The Denver Art Museum, thus placing his DNA in such venerable holdings. hair_raised_living_artist The handwritten notation along the right side of this sheet reads: If I lose all my hair, will you still care… 1985 Tom Taylor  The Codex

During his 60s Hollywood days, as Thoss W. Taylor, the artist conceived an enormous, mostly collaborative, project to create 100 uniques pieces symbolizing the interdependence of human beings. And in the end, how that amounts to “confines.” The final exhibit, Considerations of the Confines of Thoss W. Taylor, amounted to 10,000 pieces, thus 100 potential complete one-man shows, signed and numbered by him and/or the individuals with whom he collaborated. In the early 70s, nearly two dozen of these collections were exhibited in important museums, galleries and universities, coast to coast (and including Nova Scotia). Today, the venerable Corcoran Gallery in Washington D.C holds one of these in its permanent collection. Below is a sample page from the Confine Show, a Confine collaboration, co-signed with controversial screenwriter, Dalton Trumbo, a dedicated art collector, who became a patron of Taylor’s work when Taylor first arrived in Hollywood.

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Thoss W. Taylor / Dalton Trumbo 1970

dalton trumbo was my friend

 

i was privy
to the scrapbox
of this feisty
maverick
american icon
a fellow jouster
of quick humor

sunday afternoons
beside his pool
we never spoke
of his beleagured
political past
he took a liking
to my talents
collected my art
enjoyed
my wide-eyed
naivete

he kept a shoebox
heaped
with odd bits
of papers
torn and noted
with musings
for later use
in his writings

then one day
we dumped
his shoebox
on the floor
and joyfully
together
we wrestled
its contents
like children
in crisp snowflakes

he offered me
one scrap
any scrap
for my keeping

my choice
was easy —

crucifixion failed
he arose

(c) 2003 Spiel

Below is a detail from one of the Confine pieces. Thoss Taylor ripped a quote by renowned journalist, Dorothy Thompson, from a Look magazine, as he waited in his Doctor’s office, pasted it loosely to a piece of paper, then tore a similar white piece and defied the despicable Hitler quote–representing his release from the insanity of that confine. This image later became the basis for a large serigraph poster for his 1983 one-man show “Consider Your Confines” at The Center for Idea Art in Denver. confineshow_hitlerdetail

come here cowboy come here

 

see this virgin soldier boy

stilled in his prime

bagging elbows

coding knees

hey

come here mr. president

come here

phony cowboy

texas blueblood come here

see this virgin boy

counting toes fingers

and spines

go ahead if you must

line up for the rapture

with your clown hat on

mr. president

or better yet

come here come here

to face this boy

who could not bare

his superior officer’s stare

so he was demoted

from near-nobody

to nobody

bagging lips brains

and livers
for transport

back home

to the u.s.a.

come here awol cowboy

show this kid your thumbs

the parts of you which prove

you could have lifted something

greater than a crawford chainsaw

(trimming limbs of a less bloody sort)

and he will show you bags
full of thumb-knuckles
tips and fingernails

zip-coded for shipping
without really knowing
who nor where they came from

this virgin kid

whose virgin sweetheart awaits him back home

this naïve boy who bought your bring em on boast

who figured he could prove he was a man

a mighty christian at war

as he watched you pray
with your eyes shut

but this boy’s feet turned to sand

as you waffled on your why

and his girlfriend sent a message that you’d lied

and unlike all his buddies he’d never felt

the privilege of his sweetheart’s blood yet

here he was all smeared in the blood of thumbs

(not thumbs like yours with tidy fingernails)

plus baby’s splintered bone
splattered in human dung

of young men

just like him

come here come on

bigshot-target cowboy

forgive this virgin kid who cannot stand

to face you cannot look you straight

eye to eye

be humbled in his presence
mr. cowboy without a horse to ride

tell him that you’re sorry

that you led him so astray

admit you never really had the mandate

though he won’t know what a mandate is

he is a simple kid

a no body

do this phony cowboy

get down on your knees

sob yourself to bits and pieces

then hope   then beg this kid

can spare some space in his bags

to squeeze your fragments
cast astray with other odds

and ends
to code them back

to general delivery

to see if they

(aside from all
this more noble flesh and bone)

just might stand the test

for the presence of human d.n.a.

 

come here cowboy has been published in many venues, on and offline, notably, Poets Against War.  It appears in Spiel’s Pudding House Publications chapbook, come here cowboy: poems of war, available here on the “Spiel Book” page. About this war protest poem, Tom Conroy, editor of League of Laboring Poets, has written: “come here cowboy is the most brilliant and direct anti-war poem of our time.”

they will say they won’t hurt you

 

they will swear you they love you.

they will promise they could never hurt you.

they will hurt you.

there will be music.

the music will blind you.

they will not say you the real story of the big picture.

they will mess you over.

they will swear you they could never mess you.

they will turn up the music.

they will smile.

see how they smile.

how they teeth smile.

see they teeth hide they tongues.

they have two tongues.

one tongue will say you how much they love you.

one tongue will stab you in you back.

they will hurt you.

they will tell to you that you hurt you self.

they will swear love to you then tell you

that you have hurt you self.

there will be music.

they will turn up the music.

the beautiful music will blind you.

they will mess you ears.

they will make you believe you ears hear wrong.

they will make you believe they make you hear right.

they will mess you head.

they will make you believe you head is not of you.

like you head was not meant to belong to you.

like you head is best served in they care.

they will crank up the music then smile you in you face.

they will mess you head.

they will mess you sight.

they will mess you ears.

they will smile you in you face till you feel small.

you will smile they back.

or else.

or else you will drop you head.

they will call you lamb.

then they will call you lambie pie.

they will pump up the music.

they will say you they will not tell.

this is when they put they hands on you.

hey!

are you listening at me?

THIS is when they put they hands on YOU!

 

From: “They” published by March Street Press, 2007, available on the “Spiel Book” page.
snag.75rez4wbst_2lgh “snag” 24″ h x 48″ w (c) 2008 Spiel

knots and ribbons

 

these silky ribbons

round your nipples

where the bruises were

these ohh so pretty bows

from christmas

and some you tie as slipknots

you tie a few in squareknots

these are the few you yank

draw tight

to bring the bruises back

to remind you he was there

that you have nipples

and in spite of his design

they are your own

not like

when he still had a tongue

to titillate their tips

possess them

make you keep them hidden

beneath rough garments

not even fit for an old hag

he intended

no christmas for you

and no thanksgiving too

he planned you’d sleep forever

with the night noise

of his blackened tongue

on your breath

perhaps nested in your careful hair

or as a lump

beneath your pillow

then dragging from your broken purse

like an afterthought

for your own roadkill

its swollen tip stilled

but forever teasing

at your nipples

where you now tie knots

with these pretty silky ribbons

from the christmas

he believed

he could deny you

and you see in giving thanks

it was his tongue

he bit off

not yours

and that knot he tied

fit his wretched neck

but why why why

in that same moment

did he waste the knot

he tied for yours

and if it takes these bruises

just for you to feel again

let it be with ribbons

pretty ribbons

tight knots

of pretty

silky

christmas ribbons

 

From “it breathes on its own,” a Spiel chapbook
published by Pudding House Publications, 2005,
available on the Spiel Books page.

  marilyn

 

how she lingered

alone

withdrawn

her voluptuous presence

sparking secretive

beasty uprisings

and my vision is:

a platinum doll

a million evening stars

spitting sparkles

off venus’ mound

in men’s dreams

unfathomable

aloof

wanting

already contemplating

the abandon

of

what men desire

wanting out

the skinning pit

 

how many times had you watched it, three times seven times
the first time network tv got prime time rights to it,
before you could face the raw fact that you were enchanted
with those riveting hannibal lecter confrontations, that under your breath
you confessed your love for him, that you got off in his presence,
how many times before kevin that sweet shy man at the video store
with his adam’s apple almost jumping through his chin
finally said to you: you know it might be cheaper for you
to purchase your own copy than to rent it one more time –
you, knowing he surely sensed your secret love affair with lecter
because you were not the only one seeking that exhilaration,
because if there was such a thing as a dog-eared copy of a video,
certainly silence of the lambs was exactly that,
and all those who rented it had that same hunger in their eyes:
white men barely breathing, desperate for bargaining power,
not bad men, just men with a worm inside their brains which would not quit –
and maybe a wish for a skinning – some kind of transformation,
not unlike yours but then again not quite the same,
but you purchase a copy of passion of the christ instead,
a film you’ve never seen and have no intent of watching,
believing this will put his mind at ease about your character,
so you suffer through withdrawal from your lecter urge,
your wish to be inside of agent starling on her impassioned search
for buffalo bill, the revelation of his skills, and you stupidly stare
at re-runs of seinfeld and friends and everybody loves raymond,
white men white men oh such very white men,
barely breathing in a world without oxygen,
then you yield though reluctantly and shove the passion into your v.c.r.
where you are astonished to find a reckless and presumptuous film
so filled with sadism and gore you wonder at the intent of the evil minds
of the white man zealots who produced it –
whatsmore at the white man millions who proclaimed it worshipped it
and sacrificed their kids’ lunch money to support it
and you know that even hannibal lecter would have had the decency
to spit it out as white trash
and the vulnerable fledgling clarice starling
would not have wasted five seconds with it
and as for buffalo bill, well, he would not have been able to bear
the buckets upon buckets of blood smeared upon all that precious white skin,
so at six a.m. you crush it beneath the back left wheel of your ford escort,
deposit it through the overnight slot at the video store for them to reckon with,
then have bacon and french toast at denny’s
as you contemplate the skinning –
a truly fit michael jordan in the pit,
you do not abuse him – you keep him well fed on caviar
and such delicacies appropriate for a handsome and wealthy executive –
good nutrition is fundamental to your plan –
you outfit him daily with clean underwear,
provide him adequate exercise with a properly inflated wilson ball
and a challenging hoop ten feet above his head,
oh and good lighting –
good light is essential for good skin,
and as you meticulously and methodically peel band-aid size strips
of smooth and precious black skin from his body,
you replace them with white skin from yours:
he feels no pain nor of course does he complain –
quid pro quo –
you enjoy the extra blueberry syrup on your toast
then, barely breathing,
wait out front of sam’s club till it opens
so you may finally purchase your own personal library copy of silence
as soon as herds of white passion customers flock through the aisles
like blind lambs over a cliff
and you will know you cannot save them,
but it is at this moment of realization
that the freshly released wings of an emblazoned butterfly
verifiably rattle in your ear
and you
breathe freely
for the
first time

 

From Slipstream magazine. (c) 2006. Nominated for The Pushcart Prize. Hear Spiel perform “The Skinning Pit” on his c.d., “breathing back words,”
available on Spiel Books page

touch

 

when i was certain she could not speak
when she was dead   touching her
was a merciful dream i could not have imagined

such pleasure of her skin
her pure white hair within my hands

i don’t recall who took me to sign official papers
acknowledging she was gone —
the exact time
and was there anything i wished to claim?

yes — a snip of hair

even now i cannot think of anything so white

yes, a few moments alone with her

still warm
not resistant
her mouth not suggesting
how i might change my life to suit her

(c) 2005 Spiel, in “it breathes on its own” a Spiel chapbook  

return

our spines bent

legs dwindled

we walked backwards

til our house became tiny

now mama’s passed

my air is dead

i’m coiled

wrapped in gauze

replenished

by a cord

bearing amniotic fluid

(c) 2003 From “it breathes on its own,” a Spiel chapbook published by Pudding House and available on the Spiel Books page.

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